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Date: Sunday, February 22, 2009
shugs. had a bad night.
kept having bad dreams concerning u.
and once i really got scared awake that i sprang up from bed.
sighs.
nueve '08.
town, bugis, ps, vivo...
first neoprint. its been really long we took one. when'll be the next?
movies.
its a boy girl thing, hancock, batman, money not enough 2 etc.
how you came all the way down to novena to meet me without telling me.
eating all the food that we love.
spore flyer.
hall camp.
first ***.
how i hoped we were in the same og.
mayb hall camp would be so different that way.
sports camp.
how i made u upset cos i went.
but it made me realise how much u have started to mean to me.
didnt like to see you upset yet not being able to do anything.
when i got to knw u cried that night,
all i hoped to do was to keep talkin to u and not hang up the phone.
your birthday.
really spent loads of time thinkin wat to give, wat to do.
should i do everything alone, or should i join ur other frens in the surprise.
didnt have much of a choice, so i joined ur frens.
but perhaps in my heart, i hoped that it was jus me and you.
but still, seeing u so happy that night, was still worth it.
12 lotus at jp a few hours b4 ur birthday ended.
sorry i couldnt give u a very nice dinner and celebration then.
im sure if i hav a chance this yr, i will.
then ppl started takling and bitchin about stuffs that werent that true.
somehow it kinda affected us,
but i tried so hard to keep you frm leavin.
i never wanted you to leave.
and i dont ever want tat to happen.
it was so painful to see u treating me like that.
but yes, we got back to normal soon.
mugging tgt, going out occasionally, helping out each other with stuff,
things were so perfect even in the midst of all the stress.
cos we were going with the flow.
watched hanakimi the movie tgt.
was it you, me, or both of us?
if u ask me, i'd say both.
perhaps thats wat our hearts really want,
but just the same old issue had been holding us back.
my birthday.
thou we couldnt catch songs of the sea in the end,
i still enjoyed everything that day.
thanks for the gifts and time and precious memories that you gave me.
if only all my coming birthdays could be spent with u...
we still got to see songs of the sea in december ultimately :)
chomp chomp.
the jumbo sugar cane, fried corn, stingray, satay, chicken wings, omelette.
what gluttons we are.
hahas.
i sprained my ankle. you came all the way down to my hse to visit me.
i fell sick, u took the trouble to get thermometer and med for me despite ur busy schedule.
u always knw how im thinking, when im going to be emo,
the things that will affect my mood.
how u always cheer me up with ur stupide and silly acts.
it always seemed so easy for me to be cheered up by you, and im thankful to have you.
along the way till now,
there has been ups and downs.
we've made each other upset, we've made each other happy.
we've stood by each other's side in times of need.
perhaps ive not done enough in some areas,
im still learning.
there are some things i cant change,
but still the same old thing im gonna say.
why do we have to think so much and go against our will?
isnt it good to be happy by following our hearts like we've did all along.
its so hard to go against it.
i knw ive made a mistake again this time,
but i never ever want u to leave.
it might happen one day, perhaps.
but i dun want it to be any time soon.
when there's so many stuffs and so many places i wanna do and go with you.
when we're still so fine, besides some misunderstandings at times, like this time.